killing me

at last! common test is over! i feel that i did above what i expected. so come and let us study for mock exams! yah that's life. you always find youself stuck in a rut. no light at the end of the tunnel. it's just an endless arid land and a bottomless gulf. cynical huh. yeh, my perspective. yet at least i have something to look forward too.

goodness! i'm missing someone so much. i hate being in this state of nadir. i don't want to love. its a waste of time. i agree with lenard [love bites]. it hurts but i feel extreme bliss at times. ambivalence. really is amazing how extensive is the range of emotions our hearts can feel. i want to be with you so much.

moving on. can't possibly talk about bullshit all the time right?

i really stressed with my art course! not getting enough resources. well, i do have a perfectly useless and excremented art teachers with me and a wide volume of mediums the school has bought which are destined for wastage under amatuer hands but look at dss! they had finished their's! am really worried about the time. i plan to sacrifice one week for art. don't do any home work and don't study for tests. i'm headed for NAFA anyways so i must set my priorities [hate that guano-ic word].

so must constantly tell myself to stop procastinating, sigh. let it rain...